Wants are something that I find difficult to handle...
I don't want to lie to myself, but I am currently hooked with someone (not committed but just a little attached). I know there's something wrong. It's a mixed feeling of I feel right when I have his company and I feel wrong for some reason... like a hunch? a strong feeling that it's wrong.
It's been hard for me lately to make the right choices. Well yesterday, I believe that I made the right choice... but everything now seems like I need to sure what decisions I have to make.
I want to enjoy his company, but something is preventing me to.
Hmmm... It feels right but there's something wrong...
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Anyway, today, I feel like I'm carrying the world on my shoulders. Today is January 7. "Our" suppose to be "5th Anniversary".
Things can never be the same. I used to wish things would be like it was before, but I know it's different now. I am hoping however for something better... But I've decided that that better is not today. Only time can tell if the pain would heal, and only time can tell if we could be together again.
It hurts me to expect, because it's hard... Things are unpredictable.
I wish I could share more, but I still have to go to school.
*sigh*
Wednesday, January 7, 2009
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